Health Delaying Vow Renewal

Besides money, one reason I've put off making an definitive plans to renew our vows is I don't want to do it looking the way I do now. I want to feel good about myself, and look good, when I'm standing next to my handsome husband so I'm not looking at any bridesmaid gifts (or whatever you call them for a vow renewal) just yet. Then again, when we got married the first time, my husband stuck his tongue out at me during the vows so maybe I'm taking the vow renewal too seriously.

We've been married almost 14 years. The 15 year mark would be a good milestone to renew vows I think. If we're going to do it then, I am going to have to make some decisions by early next year. Our 15-year anniversary is in December 2010. I don't want to renew in December though. Maybe I should look at a spring, 2011 then? That seems too far away though.

I've been miserable for eight years, not feeling like myself since my thyroid decided to betray me. Whose to say I will feel normal a year from now either?